Do you ever feel like you're just floating along...in life...?
I constantly feel like I'm sitting on a raft in the water that doesnt have enough air to float along, slowly sinking as the weight of my body bears down upon it or like I'm on the part of the river where the current is not flowing freely - obstructed by fallen logs or huge rocks that have collected overtime.
I feel like I'm watching others soar past me in sturdy motor boats - breezing through the water and having nothing slowing them down. They smile...not having a doubt in the world; not stressing about making it to the end of the journey.
I on the other hand freat the rapids - small and large. Stress over them. Over analyze my approach. Analyze the drop after I've passed it. Wonder how well I completed that part of the river compared to others...did I struggle more than they did? Will I continue to question how much longer this will take to be over.
What can I not just enjoy the ride?!
I accredit this problem to my controling nature. I am a control freak; I will admit that. I hate to not have control, but I must learn that when it comes to the most important parts of my life - I must relinquish that control and sit back in my raft and just ride. Just enjoy. Just trust. Just know. Know I will make it to the end with a much better peace if I just relax.
I know I can pull a million biblical parallels for this metaphor I've just written. I just pray that God's river for my life continues to make millions of twists and turns, challenges me, pushes me to my limits, but yet I walk away having had the best ride of my life - walking away knowing I just survived the most amazing experiences instead of sitting on the banks watching others live it up.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Dear God...Thanks for SUN!
Today was the most beautiful day I've seen in a really long time.
Garrison and I got up and went to crossfit for a wod - lots of running which I actually didnt mind because it felt so darn good outside. I was in shorts and a tshirt at 10am on a Sunday in January. After we left the gym, we went to Dicks and bought a can of tennis balls. After two sets of tennis at my apartment complex we had each won a set: 6-2, 4-6. We sat in the rocking chairs at the pond and tried to get a sun tan. Working out, tennis and sun lounging of course demanded Menchi's yogurt...so we sat outside with 30 screaming kids and their parents and ate $10 worth of yogurt and toppings. YUM!! All of this sun (and a little sugar) has done something to my soul...I'm a firm believer in seasonal depression. Today was the day that I needed to drag myself out of my winter blues rut and remind me that life is too short to sit around waiting for something exciting to happen.
Now...here I sit on my patio - soaking up the last bit of amazing day with a glass of wine. Do I have patio furniture you ask, no. Did I bring my ottoman to my lounge chair onto the patio for some comfortable relaxation, yes. :) A little ghetto, but sitting inside alone tonight just didnt seem appropriate - especially considering Garrision and I checked the weather for next weekend. It's supposed to be 30 degrees and raining. Back to typical January weather...awesome.
Cheers to a taste of summer, a cleansing of the soul with some good ole' fashion warm weather lounging, and wearing shorts in January. Thanks God - I needed today.
Garrison and I got up and went to crossfit for a wod - lots of running which I actually didnt mind because it felt so darn good outside. I was in shorts and a tshirt at 10am on a Sunday in January. After we left the gym, we went to Dicks and bought a can of tennis balls. After two sets of tennis at my apartment complex we had each won a set: 6-2, 4-6. We sat in the rocking chairs at the pond and tried to get a sun tan. Working out, tennis and sun lounging of course demanded Menchi's yogurt...so we sat outside with 30 screaming kids and their parents and ate $10 worth of yogurt and toppings. YUM!! All of this sun (and a little sugar) has done something to my soul...I'm a firm believer in seasonal depression. Today was the day that I needed to drag myself out of my winter blues rut and remind me that life is too short to sit around waiting for something exciting to happen.
Now...here I sit on my patio - soaking up the last bit of amazing day with a glass of wine. Do I have patio furniture you ask, no. Did I bring my ottoman to my lounge chair onto the patio for some comfortable relaxation, yes. :) A little ghetto, but sitting inside alone tonight just didnt seem appropriate - especially considering Garrision and I checked the weather for next weekend. It's supposed to be 30 degrees and raining. Back to typical January weather...awesome.
Cheers to a taste of summer, a cleansing of the soul with some good ole' fashion warm weather lounging, and wearing shorts in January. Thanks God - I needed today.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Is it really 2011?!?!?
Ok...so about a year and a half I had really good intentions of starting this blog, blogging all the time, and really finding an outlet to talk about my life and all the crazy things happening in it. Well...that obviously didnt last. Good Job Chels.
So...it is a new year and I vow to myself that I WILL BE a better blogger in 2011. :) So...to recap 2010: took new job in Atlanta, started crazy workout program - Crossfit, made awesome new girl friends with lots of silly stories, chopped all my hair off, little brother got married, met the most amazing man ever - Garrison, lots of Crossfit competitions, and mom got married.
A few of my 2011 resolutions:
1) Eat less carbs.
2) Drink less coffee.
3) Spend more time learing about God.
4) Be more patient.
5) Visit at least 2 places on my bucket list.
2009 was one of the worst years of my life, 2010 had some pretty significant changes...I have a really good feeling about 2011 being one of my favorite years on record. :) Here's to 2011...
So...it is a new year and I vow to myself that I WILL BE a better blogger in 2011. :) So...to recap 2010: took new job in Atlanta, started crazy workout program - Crossfit, made awesome new girl friends with lots of silly stories, chopped all my hair off, little brother got married, met the most amazing man ever - Garrison, lots of Crossfit competitions, and mom got married.
A few of my 2011 resolutions:
1) Eat less carbs.
2) Drink less coffee.
3) Spend more time learing about God.
4) Be more patient.
5) Visit at least 2 places on my bucket list.
2009 was one of the worst years of my life, 2010 had some pretty significant changes...I have a really good feeling about 2011 being one of my favorite years on record. :) Here's to 2011...
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