Do you ever feel like you're just floating along...in life...?
I constantly feel like I'm sitting on a raft in the water that doesnt have enough air to float along, slowly sinking as the weight of my body bears down upon it or like I'm on the part of the river where the current is not flowing freely - obstructed by fallen logs or huge rocks that have collected overtime.
I feel like I'm watching others soar past me in sturdy motor boats - breezing through the water and having nothing slowing them down. They smile...not having a doubt in the world; not stressing about making it to the end of the journey.
I on the other hand freat the rapids - small and large. Stress over them. Over analyze my approach. Analyze the drop after I've passed it. Wonder how well I completed that part of the river compared to others...did I struggle more than they did? Will I continue to question how much longer this will take to be over.
What can I not just enjoy the ride?!
I accredit this problem to my controling nature. I am a control freak; I will admit that. I hate to not have control, but I must learn that when it comes to the most important parts of my life - I must relinquish that control and sit back in my raft and just ride. Just enjoy. Just trust. Just know. Know I will make it to the end with a much better peace if I just relax.
I know I can pull a million biblical parallels for this metaphor I've just written. I just pray that God's river for my life continues to make millions of twists and turns, challenges me, pushes me to my limits, but yet I walk away having had the best ride of my life - walking away knowing I just survived the most amazing experiences instead of sitting on the banks watching others live it up.
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